Can I get a do-over week...

"You pile up enough tomorrows, and you'll find you've 

collected a lot of empty yesterdays."

Harold Hill

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This week for me has been so much of a struggle, I think the weather is getting to me. All week it has been rain, rain, rain, not much sunshine to be had at all. The beginning of the week coming off having bronchitis still not feeling my best I just kind of blundered around like a lump, going through the motions. I feel as if i have somewhat lost my momentum with my goals letting life stand in my way. Yes things have been crazy with school and life in general lately and I have been sick, some days i truly did not have time to do the things I needed to do but many days lately I just choose not to saying "well I'll do it tomorrow". Tomorrow came and went and now its the end of the week. Im not just talking about Hot dates with Gym but those haven't happened either. We all say "well I didnt have time", but the fact is if its important enough you can make time. This week I didn't. I did the bare minimum. Will that get me to my goal? Probably not! I need to learn to get out there and play in the rain of life. I need to be accountable to myself.

I also had my follow up endocrinologist appointment, where i started my insulin pump, this week. Prior to last week I was actually looking forward to this, my numbers have been so much better since I started pumping  and I was excited to see what I hopped would be a nice little drop in my A1C. I knew going in that from being on the steroids my numbers were going to not be anywhere near as good. Still it was really disappointing to hear my doctor tell me it was .1 higher than last time, before i started my pump and that my meter average was still way up. In my head I knew this was all from the med's because I knew my meter average was really good prior to them, but it was still discouraging. Also of corse they weighed me at my appointment and although my scale said 197, which was still up from 192 last week, there scale had that ugly 2 in the beginning of my weight and said 202.(of corse i rechecked when i got home and their scale reads 5lbs higher than mine at home) 202!..202! ...that is not going in the right direction at all, but who's fault is that..but mine. Have I been drinking my water? Some, but not like I should....Have I been eating things I should instead of junk? Some, but not like I should...Have I been moving enough? nope! I know better than this, I know were this will get me. No wonder I feel like crap this week still. Its time to focus on the big picture again not just some little things and let some other things go. I know I can do this, I know I feel better when I do..now its just time to get back in the swing of things and get back on that proverbial waggon. I will still try to give you an update on Sunday but here are my goals for this next week:

1. get enough sleep
2. drink my water
3. get moving, have dates with Gym at least 3 days 
4. be accountable for what goes in my mouth
5. quit procrastinating, get out there and dance in the rain!

Peace, Love and Happy Blogging
M



P.S....Im now on twitter so you can tweet me! ( I know podcast and now twitter..next I shall take over the world, well my world anyways)

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