Sunday, September 18, 2011

Are you Food Real?

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“Excellence is the result of caring more than others think wise, risking more than others think safe, dreaming more than others think practical, and expecting more than others think possible.”


Are you food real with your self? Lately I have  not been real about anything health wise, especially food. My busy schedule has let old habits back in with a vengeance.  Life has lost it’s balance. As I’m sure you have noticed Life Off the D List was all but abandoned, this has to change. For me blogging is accountability to myself. Part of the reason( if I’m being truly honest) that there have been no new blog post is because it is hard to write when I’m not doing the things I need to do to take care of me. This can NOT continue. I need to find balance again.

Here is what’s been going on lately. I am taking five classes and a lab, including anatomy and physiology. On top of A&P and it’s lab I am also taking public speaking, abnormal psychology, music appreciation and swimming for fitness. Am I crazy, yes, but I really didn’t have much choice. These days my life revolves around  the human body ironically enough and if I’m lucky I also remember that I have 3 other classes I need to do homework for. Luckily the swimming class does not come with homework and gives me a built in workout three times a week.

The only thing saving me at all right now is this swimming for fitness class. If it weren’t for this class there would be no exercising happening at all. Gym and I have not been on speaking terms almost at all this past month. I have slipped back into that mindset of “Well today’s a wash, I’ll start over tomorrow”, yet tomorrow ends up being the same thing. I have been overly using the excuse that I'm just too busy. Yes, I am busier than normal but this is not something that is going to be short term. The schedule I have now is going to be like this for the next year if not longer. I can not live like this just because I got busy(er). Everyone has things that come up and get in the way, it’s called life. What makes me special that I get to use all the excuses in the book when I get busy, nothing. Its time once again to throw out that excuse book and get busy! It’s time to find that balance again.

It’s time for some new goals. While they wont be quite as lofty as my goals in the past I still want to get back on that proverbial track and see some progress. Since I am getting in a guaranteed 3 swim workouts a week my biggest problem is food. Food has become a convenience only issue. I want to find things that are still quick and easy but also healthy. I also will be stocking up on more snacks that are more healthy and less comfort foods. These days Brownies have been my drug of choice. These “drugs” and all the bad habits that have crept back in are doing nothing but making me feel like crap all the time. I’m exhausted all the time. Food is fuel and my fuel is slowing me down these days instead of keeping me going.

Now that it is cooling off I also want to start walking/running again. I have desperately missed my outdoor workouts. In addition to my swim classes I want to start adding in these outdoor workouts twice a week. It’s amazing how much these help me clear my mind and energize me. I am also going to try and institute a bedtime routine for me so that I have time to decompress and hopefully sleep better.

It’s all about mental clarity, focus and accountability!
What do you do to stay real with yourself?

Peace, Love and Happy Blogging
M

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Emerging {Flashback Saturday}


Flashback Saturday's


Emerging
April 27, 2011


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“ Learn to fly, so you can soar! “

Sometimes we get so caught up in the now or the doing of this journey itself we forget where we were when we started. We get impatient that nothing is happening when in reality, something big is happening. Little small changes are happening with our choices ever day leading to those physical and mental changes we want/need. If we keep working we are slowly becoming the person we are meant to be!

This morning on my daily blog jaunt while reading Elle’s another priorfatgirl’s blog I was reminded of this. Right now I’m in a really good place. I'm putting in lots of effort and feeling great most of the time. I have this feeling lately that amazing things are happening in my life. School finally feels like I’m getting somewhere, Life Off the D List is doing well, Life in general is going fairly well. For once I am seeing these changes happening and taking the time to appreciate them. I have big plans for my future and I know there will be lots of hard work involved, but I’m ready to take it on. Now if they could just happen in my time instead of God’s time. Impatient much, yep that can be me at times. They say good things come to those who wait, but it’s not just about waiting, you can not just sit and wait. If you want these things to happen you have to be willing to do what it will take to get there. Sometimes it takes a long, long time. If we keep working at it though it will happen. This is so hard to remember sometimes.

There is a reason this has to be a life style. There are not quick fixes for anything in life. What may seem like a miracle quick fix just about always turns out to be little more than a band aid. Band aids tend to hurt when they get ripped off, I need a permanent fix. To get this I have to change almost everything about who I am. Clearly I was not born a runner, but I will be one. I was  not taught to do mindful eating, I was taught when your sad/mad/happy/sleepy/bored here, here is something to make you feel better. I was not taught that its ok to talk about your emotions, but now I do. I didn’t grow up learning balance in life, but I’m finding it. Maybe this is as much a pep talk for me as motivation for you but the truth is if you keep working AMAZING things will happen. Work hard, keep going! Emerge as that beautiful butterfly that lays dormant within you.

Peace, Love and Happy Blogging
M

Saturday, September 10, 2011

Flashback Saturday's

Flashback Saturday's



#Reverb10 December 3
Moments

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Where I ran that day

“Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away. “
Hitch

What is a moment that made you feel the most alive this year? For me one of those moments was the day I started running in October. That little voice had been whispering to me again saying...” You could be a runner!”. I have always been in love with the idea of running, but had just decided that was something I wasn’t good at so I could never be a runner. I had recently decided to sign up for the JDRF Walk for a Cure in our area. I figured if I could do 3 miles at the gym on a machine surely I could at least walk a 5k.  Around this time I also had discovered pod cast and been listening to Two Fit Chicks and a Microphone. One episode was about running and again that little voice started in saying “what if you could run a 5k”. Now this statement kinda scared me a little…but what if I could! They had talked about a training schedule that is offered on there website to work up to running a 5k in 8 weeks. I just had to check it out. It looked do-able so I decided maybe I can do this.

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After my run

The first morning I started out it was a cool morning but off I went anyways. I couldn’t believe how alive it made me feel. No, it wasn’t easy but it still felt wonderful. That feeling lasted all day, I had energy all day. I couldn’t believe it and I thought now this feeling I could get addicted to.

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Much later that day, Still feeling awesome!

Peace, Love and Happy Blogging
M

Other #Reverb10 post
One word, Writing

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Flashback Saturday's

 

 

All the world's a stage, Are you a Player?

September 12, 2010

 




 Labor Day Beach trip..just love this picture!!!


"All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players"

William Shakespeare




The next line reads "They have their exits and their entrances", this is from Shakespeare's play As You Like It. Are you a player? Are you participating in your life, your play? Are you at entrance or exit time in your life? (sorry everyone taking a lit and drama class lol) Or are you just going through the motions? 



Have you ever really sat and thought about this, this week I did. Since school started I have used one excuse or another as to why i couldn't do what I needed to do, and said I was going to do on this new path i CHOOSE to begin.Some excuses were valid and some were just that, excuses. School just started, im busy...I just started my pump, im busy...I dont feel good..I'm on vacation....I can come up with more im sure. lol



Short of my doctor specifically asking me not to work out the first week i started my pump the rest are just excuses and reasons to keep my from living the life i need to live, and want to live. Yes we are all supper busy but it comes down to one thing, priorities. What is more important? How important is it that I make time for certain things?



This week, after being sick the entire past week including while on vacation I'd had enough with the excuses and set a hottt date with my friend Gym. I say hot date because..well it makes me laugh and just sounds more fun that saying im going to go work out. I also say "my friend Gym" because I am determined that good ol Gym will become my friend, He (yes he) is a bit difficult and taunting at times (what man cant be lol) but we are going to fast become friends, I just know it! 



This was all decided Thursday night before I went to bed, and I facebook'd it so I hadddd to do it right! So off to bed i go eventually while feeling a little funny and thinking humm maybe I should check my sugar....it was 37! Not good at all, but i treated it and finally got to bed about 3am. (80-120 is considered normal range, 37 is bad in anyone book) Three short hours later my alarm went off and I had to get up...this did not go so well but off i went after hitting the snooze button a zillion times, my daughter missing the bus and lots of internal whining. I started to break out my excuse book again...come on i had a good one lol. But no I didn't, it felt like the D Gods tempting me and saying "OK just how Serious are you about this?" to which I answered ..to hell with that i'll show you! I had originally planned to go to the gym  a bit earlier so i was rushed for time before class, but by God I WAS GOING! This only left me a little under an hour with Gym, don't think I didnt show him who was boss though! I managed to squeeze my 2 miles which usually takes me about 45 minuets into 30 minuets! Take that Gym. Then off to class i went, hoping I didnt smell, haha!
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Post 2 mile glow


OK so eventually this all caught up with me and even though i actually had a mommy weekend off i was exhausted. I went to bed at 7pm on a Friday night! The good thing about this is I was up bright and early and ready to start my day(maybe i should go to bed at 7 more often lol) I woke up at 4am and finally gave up on trying to sleep and got up at 5. I had planned on another hot date with Gym first thing anyways and figured i'd just go ahead on a little early, besides there was a yoga class i wanted to go to at 9:30 anyways. I was so proud of myself, here it is 6am on a Saturday no less and im off to see Gym. I just had to take a picture to prove it. 



Workout time



So I meet up with Gym and wonder.."why are all the lights off, I know I looked at the time to see when it opened", yep you guessed it, it wasn't open until 10. Oh well, I needed to grab a yoga mat anyways before class. So i headed to Walmart, ran back home and grabbed my books and laptop to head to the Starbucks next to the yoga studio. Lets face it I know and im sure you do If i would have stayed home I may have had to break out that excuse book again. 
Finally 9:30 arrives and im off to my first yoga class in about 2 years at Mind Body Fitness. This was an awesome class that totally kicked my butt.( note to self, remember that yoga has never been as easy as it looks!). It was a small little studio open to walk in's but also filled with lots of regulars...and the price wasnt bad either($10 for a student walk-in). We did Vinyasa yoga...not exactly sure the difference in all of them other than the hot yoga but i sure am feeling it today. Afterward I defiantly felt I had a good workout and this once again would have been the perfect opportunity to break out that good ol excuse book. BUT I had said i was going to have a date with Gym..I even put it on facebook, what if someone ask how my date went..so I decided ok, I could do this, i'll just do a short workout again. 
I had really wanted to go for 3 miles that day, but man was i tired after that yoga class. I said oh well there is always tomorrow right ill do 3 miles or 30 minuets which ever comes first. The first 10 minuets were hell, im not going to lie to you it was all i could do not to get off that elliptical and leave. It turned out though that Gym had other plans for me on our date. I started thinking about where i had read from Jen at Prior Fat Girl how important positive self talk was(love love love her blog, its so motivating) and started telling myself I could do this only x amount of minuets left, i could do anything for that long right! Well the rest of my time came and went, I hit the 2 mile mark just before my 30 minuets and started my cool down. I also started thinking about how I really wanted to do 3 miles today, it didnt even take me 30 minuets to do 2 miles, what was another 15 minuets ..i can do anything for 15 minuets, besides I can always stop anytime I want to. Well about about 12 minuets later I hit mile 3 :) It felt so good and i was so proud of myself, tired but proud!


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Post yoga and 3 miles :-D




The moral to this little fable is ...Live your life, be a player, participate in your own new beginning...and throw out that damned excuse book!





Peace, Love and Happy Blogging 
M



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