Funky Town

“We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies.”

Roderick Thorp, Rainbow Drive

 

Lately I have been in a funk and its time to take the first bus out of Funky Town! I made the decision last week that right now is not the time for me to go to those counseling sessions. Part of me had a really hard time making this decision because I don’t want to run from the issues I need to deal with regarding things like my Father’s death…but the other part of me felt a great sense of relief when I changed and then canceled my sessions. I have said before that this is an emotional journey and it is but while I do need to deal with things some of them are not going to be easy overnight fixes. These problems will still be there if I put them back up on the shelf for a few months. Its not that I will completely not deal with them but bringing them that much to the surface was causing more problems than it was good right now. I have to pass my classes! I feel like I need to revisit this while im on a break from school so it does not distract me from school. I also feel like I probably need to see someone who is licensed, not a grad student(although I did like her).

With all these emotions going on and some major deadlines and test at school my workouts and eating habits have been very sporadic. Some days I would do great others were more like well I already got off track so screw it for the rest of the day. My focus right now is on gaining some consistence again.  For my nutrition class I had to do a diet/energy analysis for 3 days, 2 week days and 1 weekend day. What I realized in doing this is that tracking makes a HUGE difference for me. Right now I need to make the effort to track everything! The days I had logged as my day went on and had a running total of my calories were all close to goal where as the days I did not log and just tallied up at the end of the day(or the next day) were almost double the calories. I also got to see what my energy output for EVERYTHING during my day was compared to my calorie intake and it’s no wonder I’m just hanging out where I am. I consume on average days that I don’t track what I would need to maintain my current weight in comparison to my energy output. Which also tells me if I would put in even just the minimum effort to track and control my calorie intake every day I would loose weight. I have enough activity daily, I just eat around it so there is  no loss. I also got to see what areas in my diet I had some major deviancies!

The program we use for this class to do this is called MyDietAnalysis, while it is not meant for every day tracking you can input a week at a time. It is pretty inexpensive and goes into a lot more detain than websites such as MyFitnessPal or SparkPeople. (both of which I like)

Current weight: 196.4 lbs

Loss: +.4

Mood: stressed

Goal this week: CONSISTANCY!

Peace, Love and Happy Blogging

M