“We have to learn to be our own best friends because we fall too easily into the trap of being our own worst enemies.”
Roderick Thorp, Rainbow Drive
Lately I have been in a funk and its time to take the first bus out of Funky Town! I made the decision last week that right now is not the time for me to go to those counseling sessions. Part of me had a really hard time making this decision because I don’t want to run from the issues I need to deal with regarding things like my Father’s death…but the other part of me felt a great sense of relief when I changed and then canceled my sessions. I have said before that this is an emotional journey and it is but while I do need to deal with things some of them are not going to be easy overnight fixes. These problems will still be there if I put them back up on the shelf for a few months. Its not that I will completely not deal with them but bringing them that much to the surface was causing more problems than it was good right now. I have to pass my classes! I feel like I need to revisit this while im on a break from school so it does not distract me from school. I also feel like I probably need to see someone who is licensed, not a grad student(although I did like her).
With all these emotions going on and some major deadlines and test at school my workouts and eating habits have been very sporadic. Some days I would do great others were more like well I already got off track so screw it for the rest of the day. My focus right now is on gaining some consistence again. For my nutrition class I had to do a diet/energy analysis for 3 days, 2 week days and 1 weekend day. What I realized in doing this is that tracking makes a HUGE difference for me. Right now I need to make the effort to track everything! The days I had logged as my day went on and had a running total of my calories were all close to goal where as the days I did not log and just tallied up at the end of the day(or the next day) were almost double the calories. I also got to see what my energy output for EVERYTHING during my day was compared to my calorie intake and it’s no wonder I’m just hanging out where I am. I consume on average days that I don’t track what I would need to maintain my current weight in comparison to my energy output. Which also tells me if I would put in even just the minimum effort to track and control my calorie intake every day I would loose weight. I have enough activity daily, I just eat around it so there is no loss. I also got to see what areas in my diet I had some major deviancies!
The program we use for this class to do this is called MyDietAnalysis, while it is not meant for every day tracking you can input a week at a time. It is pretty inexpensive and goes into a lot more detain than websites such as MyFitnessPal or SparkPeople. (both of which I like)
Current weight: 196.4 lbs
Goal this week: CONSISTANCY!
Peace, Love and Happy Blogging