Amazing things will happen. Work hard. Keep going.
Lately I feel like I have been putting a lot of fluff into my blog. I have had some things going on that I just was not ready to put out there for blogger world. It has been like trying to not talk about the giant pink elephant in the room. I don’t know that not sharing has helped. While I have shared with people off my blog, it still seems like I'm hiding something. At least it feels that way to me.
This last month has been an emotional rollercoaster dealing with all this. While I feel like I am a mess and not managing Fairy Godmother tells me that I am doing wonderfully. She keeps reminding me that although there may be tears, I AM doing! She reminds me that even when I feel like I am in crisis mode like last Monday that instead of giving up and throwing in the towel I do what needs to be done and I keep trudging on. She reminds me that I have more to deal with on a daily basis than most people managing two people’s chronic illness’s and I still manage to get it done. Fairy Godmother is in my corner. She gives me reality but also positiveness at the same time. Any criticism she has is constructive without having the feeling of a negative undertone that I get from some of my support system. Yes part of this is her job and well to be honest what she gets paid for but she has gone above and beyond that.
Fairy Godmother along with some really great friends (Kris, Sabrina, Meredith, Corryn, Simon…ok the list goes on I am loved) reminds me that even when dealing with all of this turmoil this past month I have persevered and things are getting taken care of. They along with things like #gothedist and the #priorfatpack show me that I can do this. Even with everything going on I still managed to put in 84 miles in May. I still managed to loose about 5 pounds. All the stuff going on has either been resolved or is in the process of being resolved. I did this.
With summer session starting at school, blogger land and my workouts have taken a back burner this week. Well I worked out Monday, but that was all she wrote for the week. (does walking 4 blocks in 95 degree heat to get to class count) I am taking a five week biology class with a lab that may or may not strip me of any remaining sanity I have left!
What’s my point in all this rambling you ask? Things will happen, stressful situations will come up. It’s just part of life. Part of this journey is learning to cope with these things without completely sacrificing your goals and/or sabotaging yourself. If you don’t have a support system, find or build one. If you have things you need to deal with or get out, find someone to listen. Find whatever it takes to keep you positive and motivated. If you need to cry, cry. Crying can be healing. If you need to quit, quit. Sometimes we all need to quit, right then and there and say to hell with this. We can do this, take a moment and start over a few minuets later. We need to feel the feelings that have been shoved under food, drugs, partners or whatever our coping mechanism is for all or most of our lives. YOU can do this! I can do this!
Peace, Love and Happy Blogging